Playboy....

Sorry friends not the hot magazine...ya ya i know i disappoint with the titles of the posts...Nevermind..[:)]

Well looking back and realizing what kind of a person i am shaping out to be, i need so much more to what i have to get over some feelings, feelings of lust, feelings of commitment, and feelings of guilt.I wonder why every damn thing happens to me.I am psyched.I am awed.I am laughing away at people i have known.Taking into a peek into their lives, i just couldn't control my boisterous mirth which i have acquired lately.I have re associated with people, people who were once friends,feeling something seriously odd but then life has taught me so many things, i am just getting along fine and i am indeed having fun.Saddest part or rather the sadistic part is that i am having fun looking and laughing at the lives of others, when i have my own life to laugh at.
Some people just don't deserve even to be thought off,they are just mad, blind and dumb people ruining their lives.I have stopped thinking about them, in fact of everyone.I have my own life to pave for, and now it seems to require a serious introspection coupled with a nice repair to the road i will walk on eventually. But all in all it feels so good.Very good.
Few things i have learnt lately, put in bullet format for the convenience of my blog's visitors....
* Two girls can never be best friends, if they are not sisters, no matter what.
* IIT girls are dumber maxxxx than i have thought.
* A girl who likes a guy wont listen if the guy himself says he isn't good, so only god save such girl.
* Guys are not the only people who are desperate.
* Guy friends are best to have, at all times and at all needs..all the more good if you are "gay"
* Don't get senti, nor put senti to anyone, concerned or not concerned.Its not worth.Damn it, not at all.
* There is no need to be angry anytime for anything.
* Don't get pained by anyone, if you are being pained, just ignore the person.
* Consider yourself God, and believe you are one[:)]
**** You are patient enough to go through this crap. hehehe..[:)] have fun friends..
the stars indicates the importance.The last bullet is more important....[;)]

My Rules....[:)]

As long as you apply the rules stated below....you are good to go with me...:)

* Accept the fact that I AM THE BEST.
* Stop rushing me...my time is the only time that matters.
* The most painless way to end an argument with me "You're right."
* The louder I get, the more right I am and the more angry i am ...
* Give me what i want, and I might give you some peace...
* You can do/say/wear what you want, with your own approval......never ask to me .. "Wat to do????"
* If I am sad, feed me Pepsi and listen to my story attentively and tell me how amazing I am. If you are sad, keep feeding me Pepsi and listen to what I have to say.
* Never tell me I am wrong, especially when it comes to directions to sports and pep talks.
* Plz walk around my room without ur shoes on.
* Eat all what your heart wants, just not on my bed and don't move my sheets....and if any of my stuff is coming in your way, put it on my bed, not the floor.
* Don't touch my Deo...once in a while is ok...not everyday...get ur own.
* Do not interrupt in b/w when i m talking...let me finish first...otherwise I will forget...
* When i m on the phone...do not yell and exchange message with the person on the other side...wait till i m done...
* Little surprises and kind/cute gestures keeps me smiling...
* Dont disturb while I am Messaging/studying....please...just stay away for few minutes...
* I do not loose my temper that easily nowadays, but that does not mean u go your way out to irritate me....
* Only few people can yell at me...my father and my Best Friends....
* I don't tend to like those who can't talk to me or anyone in general with respect...and politness...
* Don't pain me with ur problems, i have got my own.I mean just don't drag issues.
* If you are good with me, i did be best with you, but if you are bad with me, you are done for sure.
* Never stop me in whatever i do...I am just mad..
* Say things face to face with me and be straight forward, and please don't fake things.
* If you don't like me or don't like the things just say it to me, not that i will stop...
* I am always busy, so state your needs and get lost...
* I love people who love to win...
* I love my friends..so much...will do anything in my power to make them happy...
* I hate to orkut, but i do it nevertheless for my friends..
* Dont act dumb near me, nor smart....I am a bit of both....
* Sometimes when i get high/mad just leave me alone....never bother, i did be just fine in moments...
* I am bad, please accept the thumb rule/fact...if not god save you....

And last but not the least....
* Understand me and then cross my life...if not you sure will repent...i give my word...[:)]

There are so many rules unsaid, so many rules ; my rules which are not to be broken...but nevertheless wrote the ones which crossed my mind...

Signing off...

Continuing ennui....

This is one such day where there are loads of work to be done, but the mind and body prefer a solitude from the routine monotonous life.Have got a Water Resources and environmental engineering assignment to be done, a code to find the solutions of ordinary differential equations in Matlab, take home assignments from BioChemical engineering course,probability and stats of transportation Eng., and what not, but don't know why the day is so boring and tiresome that even if i would want to study the body doesn't co-operate. Then to top up all this stuff there are some weird situations, weird friends' problems where i am getting involved,even if i didn't want to.
Some friends of mine were telling me to update my blog fast as they were anticipating some nice posts.Though the starting of this post was written due to absolute ennui, i will try to make it interesting to give them the satisfaction of reading my blog ;) There are insti elections coming up which is one more thing which is a pain in the ass,a serious one at that if you are influenced and know people :( To make things more crazy and weird i did something for the first time,as a result of which i was feeling dizzy,sluggish and the blurred world ,the other night : my first drink :| Though i didn't like it and have decided not to try it again. :)
The courses this time are interesting but the profs are the ugly ones :( There was this prof who was saying he wished to have 4 eyes, 2 in the front and 2 at the back as students were talking as soon as he turned to face the board.I would wish he have eyes all over his body.
On the other facet of life, there are incidents with friends.I have lately realized that friends don't make you sad,if they do , they aren't the ones you think are friends.In tat front i have broken up with some of my so called friends, who never were sensible people.

On the brighter side of life, its all interesting.The water polo practices, a whole lot of swimming and physical workouts to stay fit,studying when needed and doing things right at the right time.
I wonder if my earlier posts were as arbit as this post. :( Sorry friends,an apology for me writing some crap.Because the other day i heard a friend comment on my blog that it looked more of a dairy than an interesting blog.Interesting things just don't happen all day and everyday.This whole situation calls for some adventure,like jumping from the 20ft high board in the pool, or to have a chatting marathon with some friends, or just a simple chilling out at the city centre outside the campus.
A few days back a friend of mine and i were speaking about our lives.Then we were like ,started comparing our lives to that of trains.It was an awesome comparison.She(ya the friend is a "she") was telling me her life was a train stopping at all the stations in its way,and at present she was at a station,for how long only god knows :) She passed my station a few days back,yes,days back just for a brief period though.The journey she said was a long one and its waiting to reach the final destination/station.I was like saying my life is like a train locomotive workshop repairing trains all along the life,but when your train came i said it showed my workshop has become obsolete for the train.But it took me just a little time to realize that the workshop is fine and absolutely good getting itself updated according to the latest trends but the train has become an old one(old here isn't age but....)...Felt good at comparing ourselves to trains..and that was the end of the conversation tat day...
I don't know what i am writing today,maybe because its that time of the life when i am on some particular low and all pained in life,only to be back with a bang little while later....
P.S.:Sorry for the fart friends,but i think blogs are meant for that :)

Here is a tongue twister, which i think is the only interesting sentence in this post :)
"If you notice this notice you will notice that this notice is not worth noticing ! "...and i think this suits perfect for the post .. :P
Signing off....

"BioChem Midsem"..A commedy of Errors...

Hmmm much to the anticipated biochemical engineering mid sem exam on a nice wonderful Saturday afternoon was nothing but a rude thing rubbed on the students..For the first time i have seen people who actually are enrolled in this course..The paper expectation was high and vulnerability for malpractices quite low,as this was an open library exam.But then rude shocks continued to follow with no one question matching whatever the prof taught in the class...Then started murmurs, went on up to a full fledged copying..The prof was unmindful of our intentions and actions..We had a whopping time chatting with friends in the exam hall..for me,sitting in the first bench it was not at all an exam..it was something far below than i have expected...
Anyway it turned out to be good...nevertheless finished the paper early but only had to wait till the end to pass on my answers to the people trusting in me to pass the course... [:)]..
The whole class had my class notes...it all started after the ending of the exam...there were errors in answers...and the whole class did it..it was fun...in a course with 30 S's and 30 A's, everything is fun..and everything is fair.."cheating and copying"....
All in all ,a course under this prof is a must to experience the heights of chilling out for a course altogether...unmindful and not worrying for the grades,which we eventually end up getting...kudos to the course and three cheers to Prof.Panda...!!!!...Lolzzzzzz....

"p + I j" .....

Well today was a day where there were so many poor + imaginary jokes from two of my profs.I just couldn't stop but laugh at their so called jokes....
Let me recite the incidents vividly..
First , there was our Marketing Management prof...Mr.X....He always reads from his so called textbook but couldn't explain any doubts thereof...So, today was also typically the same scenario..I was as usual dozing of in the last chair..and i see that most of my friends were sleeping too and some of them are reading newspapers and some few junta were busy discussing non academic affairs..Suddenly Mr.X realizes for the first time that students in his class are actually aren't paying any attention to his lecture.So he throws the book on the table and walks out of the class much to the relief of the class..We couldn't help stop our laughter when he comes back rushing in and says he is going to complain to the director that "people are neglecting him"...and then to avoid any untoward incidents some of my friends go and actually apologize to him that this wont be repeated again...He walks back slowly and says.."I am emotionally upset....lets have the class next Wednesday...i am really upset"...he was so kiddish , and seemed he would burst into tears....uahhauauahaha....

Second was the Environmental Engineering Professor...Mr.Y....the funkiest prof i have ever met...If the bitches in my batch are assumed to be the north poles of a magnet, this prof is the south pole...always looking at them...The whole class seems to be concentrated in the first few benches occupied by the less decent of the class(non males).hehehehe.....
Then the opening sentence he says..."I teach sewage...and also waste water..." gr8 intro...and then he says how "well polluted" the air around is....and then he goes back to his sweet old memories of when he was a faculty somewhere in Muscat....It seems he used to go to all the sewage plants and wonder how big they are compared to the tanks in India....and then he even says the silly things he did there...the funniest part he said was..."there was a particular German couple boating and the water was so crystal clear....i started taking pics of the water and slowly i took the pics of the German couple..." ...hahahaha...and he laughs..supposed to be a "pj"
....and then he goes on to say that the German lady was so beautiful....never have i seen such lascivious eyes in a man as i see in his... :(

I think i farted enough..just wanted to show how profs can be "good, bad and ugly..."...
signing off,
Drac....a.k.a....Shyam...

I think,therefore I am dangerous !!

This post is to show how widely my thoughts travel and how random they can get sometimes.This is i term just the tip of an iceberg.Just read on..interesting thoughts to come :)
I am accustomed to sleep and in my dreams to imagine the same things that lunatics imagine when awake.I am indeed amazed when I consider how weak my mind is and how prone to error.I concluded that I might take as a general rule the principle that all things which we very clearly and obviously conceive are true: only observing, however, that there is some difficulty in rightly determining the objects which we distinctly conceive.I hope that posterity will judge me kindly, not only as to the things which I have explained, but also to those which I have intentionally omitted so as to leave to others the pleasure of discovery.If I choose not to decide, I still have made a choice :( It is a mark of prudence never to trust wholly in those things which have once deceived us.It is easy to hate and it is difficult to love. This is how the whole scheme of things works. All good things are difficult to achieve; and bad things are very easy to get.When it is not in our power to determine what is true, we ought to follow what is most probable.Here again i did like to say a sentence "De omnibus dubitandum" which means "All is to be doubted".Everything in this world so illusionary.Whenever anyone has offended me,I use to feel bad and used to get back at them but now I try to raise my soul so high that the offense cannot reach it.Doubt is the origin of wisdom.I think,therefore I am.But i think a lot, so I am dangerous :)
Signing off by a quote "An optimist may see a light where there is none, but why must the pessimist always run to blow it out? "--Michel de Saint Pierre

Dont know what came over me when i was writing this piece,but then just put my randomness in the blog :).......

Loosing my Identity !!...

I had this thoughts running through my mind early in the morning.I was looking into the mirror,there was a change.I no longer see myself as the arrogant,hot head.I cant bully anymore,i lost anger,i have become easily gullible,i became humble,rather i was humbled.Lost my guts.Its like i am afraid of everything now.Something has seriously gone wrong.I noticed later in the day when i wanted to bully a freshmen,i tried to shout but i managed to squeak ! Gosh,i no longer can do that.Feelings of remorse,feeling of sadness has crept in thinking about the various people i have pained. I no longer feel angry if people bully me or pain me.There always was an aura of arrogance and over confidence which i carried so much as my identity,but i feel the aura is lost.I expect only miracles can give me back my old personality.I don't know whether whats happening is for my own good or not,but i am dwelling now in my new found life.I swim,but no longer in the ocean of feelings,if i try to,i did drown for sure.
Life has so many surprises in store.The setbacks i have been having right from the start of this year has put me into serious deliberation of planning and chalking out my future steps.I need to be overcareful. I lost interest in many things.I just have to get along,no matter what,i need to persist.I need to find the true ME,which has been alluding me for a long time.Its that time in life when i need to really think what i need.I no longer want things,i just need them.As i was reading marketing management last night,it tells there is a whole lot of difference between a want and a need.I don't want the niceties of life,i just need the basic things in life.
Hoping this new outlook and humbled life will give me the things i need...
:)
Signing off...No longer "Drac"
Shyam.....

Anger Management !!!....

When Voldi and i were walking back after shopping in Odessy and a dinner at Sangeetha,i was referring to some my life's incidents where i was so calm and composed at the situation where the other party was quarreling with me.That wouldnt have been the case some 1-2 yrs back,had i not controlled my anger,i would have blasted people like hell.There was this girl from my class which was scolding me like hell,just because i didnt help in some lab report,but there i was laughing at her.Didnt speak a word to her.It wasnt worth too.Then afterwards i was wondering in utter disbelief at how calm i was.I have controlled my anger a lot.Then there was this one more incident when due to some reasons a senior to me starts abusing me.I didnt even care to look at him,i was just ignoring him.I felt so happy,thinking how well i have been controlling my anger.Finally when he was all spent,i just said "You cant do anything better than abusing me",showing my guts :) And there was this bad ditching incident by some female,i was so chilled "fuck and forget",its too good a change..Well by now it would have been so boring for you people to know how i have really controlled my anger..I have just controlled my anger,but when used at the right place and time,it would be disastrous :|....
so signing off for today....more to come... :) watch out my space ...

Why its great to be a woman..

* Free drinks.
* Free dinners.
* Free movies.
* New lipstick gives you a whole new lease on life.
* If you are not making enough money you can blame the glass ceiling.
* No fashion faux pas you make could rival the Speedo.
* Brad Pitt.
* No one passes out when you take of your shoes.
* If you're dumb,some people will find it cute.
* You can quickly end any fight by crying.
* Your friends won't think you're weird if you ask whether there's spinach in your teeth.
* There are times when chocolate really can solve all your problems.
* You'll never regret piercing your ears.
* You know which glass was yours by the lipstick mark.

Why its great to be a Man...

* Phone conversations are over in 30 seconds flat.
* A five day vacation requires only one suitcase.
* You can open all your own jars.
* Old friends don't annoy you if you've lost or gained weight.
* You don't have to lug a bag of useful stuff around everywhere you go.
* Your last name stays put :)
* You can be showered and ready in 10 minutes.
* Wedding plans take care of themselves.
* None of your co-workers have the power to make you cry.
* If you're 34 and single nobody notices.
* You can wear a white shirt to a waterpark.
* Three pairs of shoes are more than enough.
* You can whip your shirt off on a hot day.
* Car mechanics tell you the truth.
* One mood, all the time.
* Same work...more pay.
* Gray hair and wrinkles add character.

F.R.I.E.N.D.S !!!!

Nah i am not writing anything about the sitcom...This has something to do with my friends.A chosen select group of nut wits, which i call as friends,fellow IITians,nerds,geeks and the caring people.Its all about the life we share.The dilemma of academics ;) which we go through everyday,the things we share,the assignments,jokes,thoughts...and to top all these there are bumps(getting ur arse beaten like hell for every occasion),b day treats,treats for achieving something.We are a hell lot of close friends sharing joys,sorrows,laughing at each other,bantering each other,helping each other.Well this is friendship.We know ,we are together for just 4 yrs of our stay,but then there are people from different castes,religions,different geographical backgrounds,weird people,we have all of them here.
I especially like to dedicate some of the place in here to some of the best friends i have got.Firstly i have got two names,on mind right now....Voldi and then there is Gay,my best chums,my batch mates,my group mates and what not.We did hell lot of silly things together,had fun together.Well let me put it this way..i am gonna speak a little bit everyone of this asshole and tell u what i think...
starting of with ..
Voldi : The guy has extraordinary knowledge about damn everything on earth,fart god...no one beating him at that.Pains me a lot,and that pain is good ;) Knows what he wants,cares,lives for the moment and chills all the time.Great pseud putter...in a nutshell,best friend..
Gay : The innocent looking guy next door,but this fucker isn't what all he looks,got something more to him than meets the eye.Surely a wonderful friend.I have never seen any other guy giving up as much as this ass.Sure got bunch of unknown talents.Again in a nutshell..my other close chum...
Rena : The funny guy of our wing.Prone to sarcasm and ridicule always.People trying to bully him always,thinks he plays good volley,and ya not bad :).... another gr8 guy..
HD-HappyDent : This asshole is anothe gr8 friend,who cares, who farts,who messes things up.CS guy..huh... :) One hell of a hockey player :) In short "invirile" ;)
Mayur : Stud boy of the wing.Most studious ass i have ever seen,a Aditya Birla Scholar,this guy is a complete geek,with his own crushes ;) oopss...sorry.. :)Topper in Elec.Good and disciplined guy..so disciplined he even has his own timings to shit. ;) Another genius in my wing.
Bhargav(DumbAss) : So named because he was so dumb an ass when he was ragged.Another stud from Elec,Garden Sec of our hostel,gr8 guy...Offlate a novice in photography,experimenting things...Nutshell....Good DumbAss..
Mr.Enthu : Haaa this guy ,most enthusiastic of all.Well this guy is so full of unwanted enthu, :) Shit mouthed,literally,you don't want to hear things, then u shouldnt speak to his buffoon.Great dancer,SOC Sec...another great guy to be a friend.
KB : The fatty of our wing,don't mind... :) and another great guy from elec,watching only DVD rips of movies,most knowledgeable about gizmos.Great guy to fart and chill out with.In short ,a sweet guy..
CR : The only guy in the whole hostel,i hope to have a four pack abs... ;)I envy him for his body,has been trying since long to put on weight but his body has different plans i suppose,a collector of desi porno,desi baba..Sitting in a brief underwear in his room unconcerned about his nudity and a gay ass..,an introvert,not much of a social animal.Good cricketer,a brett lee of IIT,Tapti,and the academics affairs sec of our hostel. [;)]came to my room running for editing in his description....certainly a werid asshole...Oh ya i forgot,he never gets a snap of his right...in the end it always sucks... :)
VB: This gult movie addict,has a different persona... Good at heart,"chill ra mama"....has brains and power in built but put to no use...well here is a toast to this ass...
Actually :This is another stud from my wing,my batch mate..Shagging a min of 4 times daily.A shy guy,a studious one though.Worries a lot,has so many fucking tensions,which are ofcourse too silly....Getting his D@#$ to grow,asking me fundaes on how to grow it long,the 4incher he is....Sorry buddy...lite lo...All in all,my saviour in exams,home made grub provider...a good friend..
Tina : This village lad has made it big coming here.everything is new and awe for this man.A very studious guy and only that.No particular interests.Used to go to gym,instead of putting in weight at the right places he grew his tummy so he quit..has a long way to go,determined,innocent fella... :)
Polls : This fellow with his weird laugh is one among us.a good friend..Determined,bunker of classes,PR of his branch.And then another guy next room with his very very weird laugh.Sleeping all day unconcerned about the classes.I usually see him wake up when i return from some class...A good friend..

Finally this makes me to come to an end of describing my wing junta...please dont get pained people....Lite....Sit back and enjoy...and leave me comments... [:)] just dont forget to read...